Movie Musings...

So I popped in the BBC version of the Jane Austen classic Sense and Sensibility. While I love, Love, LOVE the Emma Thompson version the BBC version is more true to the book and the casting of the Steele sisters was genius. So, I tortured my husband (who's under the influence of heavy pain killers today) and hopefully entertained the eldest while we watched the classic.

My musing: Marianne says as she's reconciling her feelings towards the cad for whom she fancied herself in love, "It isn't what we say or feel that makes us who we are, it is what we DO...or don't do." This is the crux of what I want to do over the next year. When I served my mission my only regret is that I faded out...I didn't work with all my heart, might, mind, and strength. I don't want to fade out this last year. Like I posted previously I want to be the best I can be (without going into the army. Remember the old slogan...yeah? It's funny; trust me.).

I also need to be more like Elinor and suffer more in private. I often use the analogy that strength can not be produced without resistance. To build muscle you have to lift until failure and be sore for a few days. I am literally going through this right now. I've been taking aerobics this past week and I can barely move. Not only that, but everybody knows it. I groan when I move; I exhale loudly (my abs hurt like the dickens!); I moan when I have to get up. So, I am going to have to take my analogy and suffer through it literally.

One of my goals is to be the best triathlete I can be. I chose this goal for a number of reasons. Firstly, I've never been athletic. I've been over weight my whole life and with the help of some good friends I've completed two triathlons. But, as before...I just completed them. I didn't do the best I could do. I didn't do it with all my heart, might, mind, and strength. I need to put more effort into my training and competing. Not only will just make me a better person and more physically fit; it will make pregnancy and delivery so much easier. I have to DO more. I have to try harder. I don't want to just do triathlons. I want to be a triathlete.

I could explain how this applies to all my goals, but I think you get the point. I need to be more like Elinor or more like Anne from Persuasion...more discreet, more gentle, more determined, and I need to DO. I can. I will. I've put my all in aerobics this week. I'm going to not grunt and groan next week. And, I'm going to continue to ride my bike to work...and darn it! I'm going to go running; not just jogging.